The past two days have been irritating - I'm irritated. And instead of doing something constructive about it, I had a very unhealthy self-soothing session yesterday that included cheesecake, oreo cookie brownies, and of course plain old brownies. It continued last night, involving half a pack of Skittles, a few caramel candies and multiple mouthfuls of RediWhip from the can. I wrote in my Bootcamp journal, went to bed and resolved to have a better day today.

Amongst unappreciative bosses, irritating coworkers, feelings of failure bubbling to my surface and these two dogs whom I absolutely adore, but who are also pulling each others' tails and gnawing each others faces at this very moment, I need some peace, some quiet, and some doting. Living here alone most of the time just isn't for me and I miss that (also irritating at times) man dearly. Two more weeks.

Today I will truly be in bootcamp, checking off each box as I log my macros like Nutritionist Sally said to do. I have a list of tasks to accomplish and that way I have no choice but to do them - it leaves no free time and leaves no time to do destructive things. Lists are things you do, like it or not, and so wish me luck - I'd like to like it.