Hello, Universe, It's Me!

I'd like to give a little introduction. I am a 57 year old woman that can't figure out a normal relationship with food. Food has been in my daily thoughts from the time I was a child. In the dysfunctional (I know, wasn't everyone's childhood dysfunctional?) family I grew up in, food was the only consistent, dependable thing I had. It was always there, there were no limits as to how much I could have, and it never ridiculed or embarrassed me, never called me names, and never belittled me. Who could ask for a better friend than that?

I know that the way I grew up was not normal, I know that my parental units were not up to par; I know, through therapy, that I was not given what I needed to 'grow up'....( I was, however, able to figure out how to grow out!). What I don't know is how to let it all go so that I can live life instead of always fighting it. I'm tired!! As I near retirement I just want to enjoy life without every single day revolving around food...too much, out of control; too little, on a diet.

I know we are only as sick as our secrets, so stand back, Universe! I am hoping that this blog will help things become clearer. I am beginning to believe that Spirit wants me to be happy, that being miserable does not have to be my destiny, that I am capable to rise above this. I am calling on St. Michael the Archangel (he is my patron saint), the Holy Spirit, and Blessed Mary, to help me on this journey; to hold me up; to hold my hand; to hold me accountable; to guide me and give me the strength to love myself enough.

I was afraid to write this first blog, now I'm afraid to stop!