Allow me to introduce myself. I am complicated - more multi-faceted than the most brilliant diamond you've ever seen. I am twenty-five and at 5' 6" and 180 pounds, I am obsessed with my body. I grew up very overweight and reached my heaviest weight of 270 pounds in high school. Those days I woke up every morning with a smile on my face - I was optimistic and positive and loved myself, despite hating my body and everything about it.
It wasn't until I started losing weight in 2001 after graduating high school that my obsession began. I stopped eating sugar entirely and starting exercising daily. The day I got my first compliment (Hey! You've lost some weight!) was the day I became infatuated with my body and the way it appeared to others. That compliment was a poisonous apple and I was Snow White - and it has plagued me ever since.
Over the past seven years I have lost quite a bit of weight. I started way back when at a size 22 and today I wear a 12. I can exhibit more self-control and will power than those English guards in the fuzzy hats if I want to. The trouble is, I have just two modes: Obsessed and Apathetic. It is my goal to find a method of living, eating and exercising that is healthy and that also brings results without every minute of every hour of every day revolving around food, diet, exercise and body image. It is my hope that my adventure with Through Thick and Thin will help me achieve this oh-so-important goal so that I may fill my thoughts and time and soul and spirit with more nourishing, more fulfilling and more purposeful things.
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